its been a while huh...anonther year is over and done with...exams came and gone...results out and about...both went alrite if i may add...

back in malaysia now...as per usual...waking up at 8 every morning to wait for my dad to have brekkie with him...having constant lectures...mainly about my "10 year plan", but also covering other topics such as taiwan, china, politics basicaly, family, studies, friendship...future etc...the list goes way way way too long for me to actually write it down. Ah well...home sweet home if i may add...wouldnt picture my life here any other way...

was plannin to head down to shanghai, china this week. Dad wanted me to check out the nottingham university over there as he wanted me to do masters in international business management there, mainly because he thought that there would be a lot of international students there, that i will be in china so i can travel around etc...having the best of the east and west etc...but not any more. He made a trip to shanghai himself, on business i think, and visited the campus...well...lets just say he wasnt impressed...couz there wasnt that many students and im guessin 98 percent are still china chinese...so..basicaly theres no point...it might get better in years to come...couz notthingham uni just opened a couple of years back..but for now...shanghai is a no go...

highlight of the holiday so far has been bak kut teh and seafood session with the IHers...cant believe how ppl can get lost constantly when they come down to klang...do you see me getting lose when i go down to kl...no rite...then? WTH.... ooh...and someone officially asked whether i was gay...damn you ...jun?june?junie? whatever it is...damn you!No im not gay...shit man..still cant believe this....damnnnnn......

went clubbin on sat...zouk velvet it was...surprisingly i got in without being asked for ID...couz the minimum age for guys is 25 (girls diff la...couz they want more girls in there...and girls can "rasuah" with their...*ahem*)...so yeah..surprised i wasnt asked at all...do i reli look that old...or is it because i was following my bros friend in which is a big timer..and a regular at the club..really hope its the latter...

wanna head down to singapore this week...just to check it out...aint telling anyone about it until its confirm couz i have been saying i wanna go to sg forever..but never did..unless you count that stupid 10 hour trip to sg last semester....so yeah.onli gonna tell them if its confirmed....if not.. *pai seh* man

ah well...what else is there..nothing really...wanna shop..must shop...so sad...i purposely left a pair of jeans here last holiday..new..and unworn...couz i havent altered it yet....and this time i come back just to realise its nowhere to be seen..got a feeling my mum went and gave it out to charity...so yeah...out of pants..out of jeans...conclusion....NEED TO SHOP!!!

liverpool doing well....the last 2 match gettin 4-0 wins...quite shocked as a liverpool fan...honestly..if you are a liverpool fan..rarely will you see your team accomplish such a feat...

thats it for now...dad calling....im guessin its lectures again...sad thing is...in this case...im 99% my guess is right....

camwhores...

Sorta...tried to have a portrait session...hahaha..didnt turn out as well as i thought it would be...everything just went wrong last minute and had to change lots of stuff...quite messy...ah well..now i guess i learnt a bit..and hopefully my photography skills can get better...bit by bit...

So here they are..the models!!!

Jeannie Pig for Zoo Oweek!!!
Dhivia the Diva...
Fang...sports man of the year...i think?
See...Hear...Speak No Evil
as gay as it gets...
Tribute to Sheanee with her 3 favourite poses...
Liyen and Evelyn workin the cam...
Allen and his randomness...
Kaiyau with the guitar...
Teluk intan girl...trying to change her "Ah Lian" image and CK...
Think ive seen this in a couple of movie posters...cc and ken...
I think out of all...Ken is the CAMWHORE!!! he wins it by a mile..the fact that he brought his own prop says it all...
CC...
Tha Meds...Jia Hui and Hui Ling
The camwhore couples...ck and veron, cc and ken...

random kid who just stood in front of me at studley park and wanted me to take a picture of him....perfect picture of innocence...just what the world lacks right now...

Need i say more...just a random picture i took at fed square...just...wonderful....

Studley park...

Had a random trip to this random park at kew... it was totally ...all of a sudden. Just called up sheanee after lunch and asked her what she was doing. She said she was going to follow aaron to studley park as aaron has to take some photos of the bridge there for his project. Thought i might as well go as i had nothing to do...besides..it was the perfect day for the park. The weather was perfect..needless to say...it was fun... perfect day to bring my camera out for a couple of pics here and there...still learning though so forgive me if my pics arent good yet.... haha...forgot to change my settings from last time and it was still stuck on potrait mode...ah well...ill learn from mistakes...anyhows...piccas for everyone...

Kaine's bridge (think thats the spelling)


Random photo...
Random photo...again...nice lavenders...

Da boats....


24, Aaron, Sheanee and Kenny out on a mission to explore the world of rowing...

10 minutes later...they barely got 10 meters away from where they started...

Lets just say...They got stuck!!!


Aaron looks satisfied after a productive day...cant say the same about sheanee...

Birthdays...

Cant believe that a year has passed by...and soon i will be turning 20...no... this isnt a post reminding you guys that my b day is coming up...it can be though if you look at it that way... but it isnt... just thought about this as there has been so many birthdays the past 2 weeks or so...

A year...blew by just like that...without you noticing it...without you ever being able to pause a moment in time as it keeps running... you cant hold on to a good moment...you cant make it last... i guess u just have to remember it and keep it in your memory bank somewhere...

Ah well...that aside....heres a shout out to all the bday peeps...sorry its so late...but like they say....better late then never huh...

Happy 19th Sheanee


Happy 21st Grace


Happy 21st Rahul


Happy 21st Leah

Friends...

What makes someone a friend? What makes you a friend of someone. Everyone has different definition of the word "friend". According to dictionary.com, the definition of friends is as follow:

1. A person whom one knows, likes, and trusts.
2. A person whom one knows; an acquaintance.
3. A person with whom one is allied in a struggle or cause; a comrade.
4. One who supports, sympathizes with, or patronizes a group, cause, or movement: friends of the clean air movement.
5. Friend A member of the Society of Friends; a Quaker.

So, which one are we meant to go for? which one are we meant to follow and adopt in our lives?

Personally, i really dont know. Is it the person whom you hang out with everyday at uni? the person whom you play bball with everynight? the person who drinks with you and cracks stupid ass jokes?which one is it?

Personally, i think its all of the above. Your enemy can also be a friend of yours. Come on, we all have to face the facts, no one is perfect, no one is close to it, not one tiny bit. Everyone is bound to dislike a characteristics of another person...even though they are friends. So personally,i feel that everyone is a friend, even your enemies...yes...even your enemies.

Been thinking recently at how i dont reli contact my friends back in malaysia anymore. Guess i used to call home once a week ....to all my friends to check out on them...but its come to a point that i already know so many ppl over here to the point that im packed up with them....and dont reli have the time....to call back and all. Its not that i dont want to...but yeah...just..living a different life here.

Its come to that point where you dont even know what to talk to them about...there isnt much relevant topic anymore...ive been here for 4 years now...and im barely back in malaysia for 3 months in total each year. Needless to say, even more so with my curfew back home..that i cant meet up with everyone...and after 4 years...its just hard to keep in contact...everyone has a different life now...and they have new friends....theres nothing you can do about it...its just life...

Even meeting your best friend from high school can be different...its just harder nowadays...thers onli that much stuff you can talk about...ppl mature and choose different paths along the way...and the common topics are just not...that common anymore...

So what does this mean...that im not that close to that person anymore...i hope not...How i look at it is that....even though we walk down different paths now...that doesnt mean our bond isnt as close as before...I personally know that my best friend back home...is still my best friend at heart...and whenever im in trouble....i can always count on him...just like before....even though we do not have much to talk about now...it doesnt matter...we stay by each other through thick and thin.....and thats life....

just a shout out to everyone back home....if i dont call and everything...hope you guys understand...its just that..i have a life here as well..and i have heaps of friends here as well to fill up my time...but that dont mean i have forgotten you guys..and you all know it...i always try my best to meet up with you guys...and talk about as much bullshit as we can...and dont worry....your photos are on my wall...so...trust me...your a long long long way from being forgotten...

First few photos from my camera...

Been playing around with my camera the past few days..havent taken reli nice photos yet...still a rookie with my camera..but hopefully as time passes the photos will get better...hhaha..but as for now...heres all i got....

back alley of new building...

Lil Kim in the lift...


My beloved room...

Nikon d70...finally...i have it...now...if only i know how to use it...

finally got my camera that ive been dreaming for oh so long...Was going to get 2nd hand one from fred, but my mum said that i might as well get a new one cause fred's camera wouldnt have warranty. Mum called me the next day from singapore...as she was visiting singapore with my dad and my sis...told me she was at the shop and they were selling the camera and the lens for 1300 sg dollars (1100 Aud approx) so yeah...went for it as it was an awesome price i reckon....what shocked me was when my mum said " oh...so i buy now....tomolo you go get it from alicia(my cousin)", and she passes the call to my cousin...who is an air stewardess....perfect timing....she was flying off to melbourne that night itself...so i need not wait for my camera after all.... thought i had to wait till the end of holidays before i can grab hold of it...but no....one day...now thats what i call express shipping...

so yeah...have my new lil baby with me...bought a book on how to use it..(recomended by fred) and will start taking photos soon i guess once im confident enough to use the camera and once i know how to use its functions...which im clueless about at the moment..man...i swear..these cameras can take just about any kinda photos man...with diff lens...its shocking to see how many diff type of lens there is...what purpose it is for..this and that..this and that...argh...its reli..overwhelming if i may add...

Moving along....kaori's 21st was on friday...HAPPY BIRTHDAY KAORI...went out to have dinner...damn a lot of people man...30 plus im guessing...it was a great celebration...many diff ppl from diff countries come and gather to celebrate....kaori's reaction to all the birthday presents are just...classic..priceless...all in all...a good night out. Came back after that....invited kaori and her friends up...met 3 new people...yoshi(5th year med), pavel and asuka( 1st year med)...drank quite a bit....yoshi got absolutely smashes...so was midori...(but thats midori...onli 1 drink and shes gone)...but yoshi went out hard...ah welll....all i can say is....bloody med kids...cant hold their alchohol....cant say the same for pavel( who is half russian, half korean but lived in japan for the past 15 years)....what can i say..this guy just cant get drunk man...swear he had about 4 shots of 151...depth charge...couple of vodka shots...beer....goon...!!goon!!!(guess he had the right mixture of blood...best of the asian(korean) and europe(russian)). he was totally sober...as in...not even a slight bit tipsy....as for craig...asuka and kaori..think they were tipsy...a bit drunk....but...not the spew drunk..just the happy drunk....and so was i.....hahaha...slept perfectly fine that night..even though i was sleepin on the floor...no....not because i was totally smashed..just have this hygene thing where i dont hop onto bed if im dirty or havent had a shower and stuff...ah well...to sum it all...it was a great night!

Happy 21st Kaori...

boys soccer...ah well..we lost in the finals..but still..it was a good season i reckon...we were a good team..but trinity was better...have to hand it to them..they played better than us ..and they deserved the win......

AGM is tonight...here are my tab guesses:

president:jeff
vice pres:grace or randeep...still dont know about this one
Secretary:Rei
Treasurer:CC
Ao:Jeannie
At:Eugenie
As:Aaron
Co:Reena
Io:Aditi
CC:Dhivia
Male sports:damien downes
female sports:Kat
Icac:Dcunn?
shop:Obie
Food:Hannah

time to get down to the nitty gritty...

Havent seen my blog in a week or so and didnt realised that i had so many comments ...didnt realise that people actually read my blog...wheeee!!! ppl actually read what i write...not bad for starters...

Anyhows, been really busy and will be absolutely packed this week. Have an assignment due on friday, test tomorrow, test friday, small part of project presentation thingi on thursday...all in all...wish me luck!!!

still having a big dilemma now!!! get the camera or not? for 1000 AUD...i guess i would use it quite a bit as i reli do have the passion for taking photos i guess....but...1000 is quite a bit of money even if it means savin RM1000 if i bought a new one in malaysia. Besides, after getting the camera i still need to get the bag etc and accesories....gonna make me totally broke!!!

Holidays are coming up soon....dont reli know what to do ...guess ill head down to torquay for a bit with sugat to visit azz and james...might go to sydney or gold coast if the tickets are cheap and if i do get the camera....and theres some house boat thing going on at echuka? Help me out? i actually think i might have the option of going home..but nah....dont feel like it...planning to have 1 week of holiday and the other week to work on my project due in week 10!!!
so yeah..thats it now....

To all the readers...thanks for your support...your comments really help....!!!Thank You...

Now i run...

as most of you would know by now...my dad was here last weekend...It was indeed an awful 5 days for me...getting lectured constantly...but i guess ive been used to it as ive been getting it since i was about...14 or 15 years old...well...i got it much earlier than that but it was this age where the lectures started getting longer and longer...

So yeah...dad was here to check on me and make sure that im doing alright in my uni. Which i think i am...i hope i am..as this semester...there aint no turning back...

dad wrote me something...'key performance indicator' for this current semester...and in it...i have to :

-reduce all bday party to 0
-reduce IH duty to 0
-reduce socializin in IH to once a week
-only one outing to the city a week
-reduce idle talk to 0
-increase private study to 6 hours a day
-interact with IS students daily
-have tuitions
-report home once a week

If you dont believe this you can come up to my room and have a look at the paper in which he wrote it in...

Kim looked at it...and she said "if i had to do this...ill die"

Pretty sure if any of you had to go through my dads lecture...it will eventually drive you insane...

Dad also said that i should take down all the photos in my room as it is a visual distraction...i should onli put up a photo of him and my mum to remind me of them and so it will make me consciencely work hard this semester...

I dont know...guess my dad is being too anal about me failing and all..Yes i do know it is my fault...but i guess he doesnt know the true reason why i failed.... which is...

-NOT ATTENDING CLASSES

in my dads eyes ...i did attend my classes and actually did work...but prob not enuff....so i guess he thinks that i reli need to try all my might .....but seriously...a H1 student wouldnt even have a routine as prescribe as my dad....

I dont know..of course i take all he has to say...but i just think that its reli bull shit...
i agree with the whole...cut down on social activities..but to 0...come on...everyone knows that impossible for me...or for anyone...thats just ridiculous...
the photos are another thing..i dun look at them when im studying as its at the back wall....i just need em...as i feel like it makes my room much more...roomier...or ...lived in...makes it feel much more homely...and there is a reason why i put up photos in my room...

it reminds me of the friends that i have and the friends that are there to help me when im in need...and the friends that i know want me to do well in my studies...

prob what harvard said was true " eddie..you so insecure ah...have to stick all the photos of you with your friends to show ppl that you actually have friends"

Prob its true...but yeah..it still works for me...so all in all..i guess i do take in what my dad said..but i think its too extreme..and its reli stressin at times when he lectures you ..over and over again...over the same issue..using the same points....and longs lectures with that..hours and hours.....

It is up till then that i realised...one of the biggest reason why i always start smoking again...one of the biggest stress of my life..or actually..the biggest stress of my life...is from my dad....

I guess im just annoyed at myself...that i havent been able to fulfil what my dad wanted me to do...

and im not reachin my full potential...no...no where near that...

just stress as i know my mum is getting shit from my dad couz im turning out a failure..

Just stressin couz i live a life quite different from everyone else....

a protected life...without much freedom at all...

a life where i dont get to go on holiday with my friends....

couz my dad will always say he might be coming and i have to wait and see whether he comes...

which in the end....he DOESNT....

a life where i just keep waiting...im totally dependant on my dad..and cant do anything until he says its okay...

that i cant go out unless he is not at home..or have gone to bed...

or i have to wake up for brekkie at 745 am each morning...

should be back around 5 in the afternoon just in case he wants to excercise...

just stress at how i can have this life even though im 20 years old this year...

just stressin...why i cant lead my own life...

In the end...what my dad always say has some meaning to it...and as much as i hate it... i have to face reality and that he is actually right....all the time...

so yeah..i realise what i have done..and i guess i hope that ill be able to turn it around this semester and this whole life of mine...

guess after all...he is my dad...and i respect him....

As this song by shannon noll titled "now i run" goes:
Cause everything that I am
Comes from a better man
And all that Ive said and done
Cant rewrite my history
Right there for all to see
Im just my fathers son
Taught me to walk, now I run
Now I run...

and i hope that i become
half the man he'd want me to be...

updatez...
its been a while...Malaysia was good...highlight of my holidays would definitely be the langkawi trip and jenny making her way down. Had lots of fun...didnt have to work this time around...couz jenny stayed over for a week and she was my pass to go out and have fun...took her around...tried lots of diff food...well...her...not me...and yeah...went to langkawi with viv, sarah...gretch, kenny, mabel, pat and jenny!

It didnt cost much at all..accomodation was free...just had to pay for food...air fare...car rental and last ...but not least...alchomohol!!! alc was so cheap there that a beer would be a cheaper choice than a bottle of mineral water. Went to a couple of the beaches...really nice...sneaked into the four seasons hotel and got paranoid that the security guard was out to catch us all...drank till we got drunk off our tits....thats how holiday is meant to be...

The four seasons hotel...wish my house was like that...

'Give me Angry' pose with Sarah
Gretch, viv I and jenny at Sheraton hotel...
Tannin at tanjung rhu beach...got stung by jelly fish..
All of us at four seasons hotel...this pic was taken by the towel boy...and werent even guest in the hotels...he even offered us towels and mineral water...
pantai cenang...
Jenny and I...miss ya lots!!!



Came home to face reality...failed 3 subs...big big time...had to come back to Aus asap to see the board of unsatisfactory progress...almost got kicked out of uni..but for some reason..im still in...only allowed to do 3 subs though...ah well...

IH is going alrite...metting yet a new bunch of ppl....have to say the americans this semester are a much better bunch.. really good bunch of freshers we have this semester. booze cruise was good ass...got drunk...went down flinders st screaming...mahai...me drunk man along the way...stupid bartender not using the shot pourer while filling up drinks with 2 shots of spirit instead of one....was quite fun seeing so many ppl spew along the way...

Da boyz
Pink rules
Me,Kim,Ronny and Val
Da real Phat Parkes and Korean will(Sandy's brother)



cant say much myself though...went to viv...izz and chris bbq birthday lamb spit thingi the next week..and got absolutely smashed...on my defence..i was sick and weak!!!on medication as well!! Dad was visiting..definitely not a good sign...went to izz chris and viv's b day lamb spit party thingi...got totally wasted...spewed on the garage of my aunts place...actually had a plan...i was meant to be there for only 3 hours since my dad was here ...so it was going to be from 5.30 to 8.30. told everyone that they have to remind me to take a shower at 8.15 so i dont smell like smoke and gives me time to sober up...took a shower then...brush my teeth...listerine with that as well...sprayed perfume....drank lots of water to try to sober up...i was alrite till the 30 minutes messed up drive back to my aunts place...too much turnin...anyways..i spewed...and my dad saw...told him it was because i was feeling really ill and had tummy upsets and was really weak!!!he bought it ...i think...well..lets assume he did....

The Johnnie Fraternity


What else is there to mention...winters dinner went well...took 81 photos in total...so thats always a good sign that i still have friends...hahaha!went to the pub after that and saw countless ppl making out...damn those ppl!!!What about me...it isnt fair...i had enuff now i want my share...man..think im getting a lil too desperate for my own liking...

American exchange Joyce and I
just realised the other day that i didnt have a photo with damien for some reason...so yeah....makin up for lost times!!!
Mel, Em, Maddie and I
England exchange shiv...
the three stooges....
lil Jo...
Beyonce and Usher...
Grace and Joe...


Schools going alrite....attending most of my classes at the moment....actually know what im meant to do ...actually know the hurdle requirement and meeting them...plannin to try to do well this semester for once...wish me luck...not attending 100 percent of my classes..but definitely close to it..and the biggest diff rite now is...that im actually...doing alrite...that im trying to keep up with work and not wait till assignment period or swotvac to try to do everything at once...

Dads was here..left last nite...gave me constant lectures that are really got on my nerves! but ah well...Got so much work to do though...assignments due next week!!! wanna clean up my room...wanna develope all the photos form scholars....langkawi and stuff to stick on my wall...have to do my 4 loads of laundry...tidy everything up ...and focus....focus on my work ...

As for smokin...dont know..not givin out promises...just trying to do the best i can in trying to stop and lets see how we go alrite!!!

so yeah..thats basicaly my whole life the past month in a nutshell..things going alrite i reckon..and will keep in touch and update this blog more often than not....