IH ohh IH.....been contemplating on IH for the past weeks...or more like...the past few months. I guess its not all that great as i have mentioned. Dont know...just feel that...it has changed a lot. Dont reli know whether its the evolution of myself, or probably just the evolution of IHers this year. Spent time chatting with couple of friends here and there...and im not the only one who feels this way.

My heart doesnt fully belong to this place anymore. Sure the 1st year was awesome, got to know the most amount of friends in a very long time. And then came 2nd year, where half of your friends leave and 170 new faces shows up in no time...having their own personalities in groups, clicking much better with themselves...among freshers then with seniors. Now i come to understand what the seniors were saying last year, now i come to understand why people tend to move out after a year or 2. Im not saying the freshers are stuck up...just...different...

I guess when 2nd year kicks in with college life...it aint always pretty. The breaking up of groups might leave one or 2 odd ones out...which leaves them without a click. Friendships might take a turn...ppl changing groups with freshers coming in. Ppl changing...new things you learn about your friends...that you didnt know b4....or friends just changing into something there werent last year.

People change...there isnt anything in the world you can do about it. Change is inevitable...everyone changes. but at times people change more than you would expect them to...and those are the times where conflicts arise...and separation of groups,separation of friendships happen.

As this goes on...you always have relationship problems. Everyone say...the 1st year of a relationship is always the honeymoon year...where everyone is all cuddly and all...and 2nd year comes along where they reli start droppin the whole cuddly act...start treating the relationship seriously...and realise...it was all wrong to start off with...which leads to...well....nothing good basicaly...

Dont know...all in all...just dont feel good i guess...feel quite down in fact. Just sitting down..witnessing and then analysing all that is going on...its just ...quite sad at how things are...its harder to put on a smile....its harder to make a joke...its harder to help people out...its just...harder...

Just wondering...where was that IH'dreamland' in which i didnt want to leave last year...where has it all gone...